Wednesday, March 23, 2011

I Really Don't Care for Cats

I am not sure exactly why, but I feel a little silly blogging. It could be a little shyness, a little insecurity, or a full-on, crippling social disorder that will eventually lead to me becoming a shut in with only anonymous internet accounts and an unhealthy number of cats, too afraid to face the world outside or the fake world on the internet. Man, I hope it's not the last one. At any rate, this silliness* has kept me from posting about this blog on Twitter or Facebook. I haven't added a link in my profile for either site. I've mentioned it to one person and told that person that I will probably delete it.

As much as I hate to admit it, I am not always the most confident person. I would love to be someone who says and does whatever she wants without giving a second thought to what anyone else might think but, the fact of the matter is, I do give it a second thought. What if this person doesn't get my sense of humor? What if they figure out just how much of a geek I am? What if they find out how entertaining I find this? What if they are irritated by my use of "they" when it should be "he/she?" It's pretty lame.

Today, I realized that none of this really matters. Nothing I write on this blog will matter. I wanted to have a blog, to write about whatever I'm interested in writing about. People can read it or they can not read it. It does not matter. The people who really matter already know how awkward and nerdy I am, and if they don't, they probably should.
(Photo from Stefan's fantastic 365 project)

*The word "silliness" looks strange to me. I started to type "sillyness" but the red squiggly lines appeared and, apparently, "silliness" is correct. I think it sounds like a brand of medication.

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